Growing Up

Hi there, I was laying on my bed wandering what I've been doing this weekend and all of sudden I wanna write this post. I just need to mark on this year, on this point of my life, that I feel so scared to grow up. I'll re-read this post few years later, when I'm old enough to remember that I've written this post.

Lately I've been told by my parents that I am not young anymore and I had to have a plan about my future. I can't believe that I'm currently studying in my 6th semester and will be graduated in a year! (no more class, no more cursing the lecturers, etc). My dad is keep reminding me how hard it is to find a job, become successful and talk about adulthood literally every week, which makes me really scared to grow up. I am not ready to work 9-5 every weekdays to pay my own living expenses *pampered kid alert*. then last week I watched "this is 40", the movie showed that there are various problems that we'll face when become adults. I used to wanna have dozens of children, but now I will think carefully to have one. I want to freeze this phase of my life, I'm halfway to forties and have become young adult.

I know it's good to have plan for our future, but I never did. I'm the kind of person who just let my life flow and so far my life flows quite smooth and I feel so blessed. let see what I will be after few more years, I only see myself will be working on a graphic house after graduate, but who knows... GOOD LUCK SAM!

ENJOY YOUR LIFE, IT'S SHORT! seriously, I'm 20 yo but I feel old already.
"the trick is growing up without growing old" - cassey stengel.

Calendar 2014

Bali 2013

just got back from Bali last months, it was rad, I've been to Bali few times before but this time is the best. such an adventure, there was a time when we want to push the expense, a lot of money was wasted few days earlier, moreover we spent too much on airfares, we got really expensive plane tickets. so we decided to rent motorcycles instead of a car, but ended up cost more expensive due to one of the motorcycle ran out of gas in the middle of the road, at the same time my sandal broke and suddenly the rain fell, what a bad luck. we took shelter in the nearest circle k and grumpily continue after the rain stopped ~

here are some photos and an amateur short video documentary for you to enjoy, regret that I didn't took photos and videos that much. make sure you guys took millions of photos when you are on a great trip.